I woke up late, it was like 12 in the afternoon. It took me til almost
I’ve concentrated my mind to just do the conscious breathing exercise.
I was like…
“breaaatheee innnn…. Breatthheeee outttt…..
Breattheee inn…. Brrr—
- stupid. You’re so stupid!!! I’m sure it was you dumbass!!!”.
*bwahhkk..
Coughed my lungs out.
“tss… that was never worth remembering. I’m sure Cara’s just stupid to agree with my stupidness. That I’m the one Almira’s talking about? My mind must’ve been fucked up.
*sighs… I guess we’re both stupid”.
I realized I’m at the window with that monologue. My neighbor kinda looked at me weird. Seems like she’s been hearing my shits.
“yeah!!! Oh great! I’m talking to myself! Have a nice day!”
Shut the curtains closed.
Hmmm… I don’t plan to leave the house today. It feels like my world’s only gonna be much more complicated that I can’t put things as it was before… if I leave that is.
So… uhmmm… lezee, what will be my lunch for today.
Tss…
I’ll open my desktop and let my Little Warrior fight her ass off.
Or maybe , ill feel better if I play poker?
Or beat my enemy's ass in GG!
Whatever will it be! I have so much choice to enjoy! Mwahahaha
*laughed like a bastard.
When I logged my facebook acct and clicked on my Little Warrior I only got disappointed.
“
-xxXAlmiraXxx
“Gugh! That’s it! I’m gonna view her dammit!”
I viewed her like I usually does, saw something in her wall. I felt my heart broken when I read her wall status.
“sorry for what happened yesterday. I’ve realized I need to act more mature. I shouldn’t acted like that. It was funny though. I’ve found myself in the same situation as before.
He’s still with someone else”.
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Blah: that guys must’ve been out of his mind!
Blah2: yeah who ever that Yano Stifler guy is. I’m sure he eats shit
Blah: yeah, I heard it too, I was there. She left when she said that name.
So it was really me!
I don’t care bout how people talks shits about me anymore.
I’ll go and meet her.
So after that day I went to a “channel station” that she’s about to be guesting.
Tss. I know it may sound like already stalking but it must be done.
I need to apologize to her.
She did came. Darn her presence is so heavy. I feel my jaw shaking.
I was like slapping my jaw, then tried to look tough.
Her sister tried to block her site for her not to see me.
Gosh…how did her sister even recognize me?...
She was staring me as is she were saying:
“what are you doing here?!” but that time I was decided.
I’m gonna talk to her.
“Almira…” I said with the finest voice I could give.
She did looked, surprised.
“y-Yano?”.. with the softest of voice. It struck my heart. I was like shaking stupidly. Oh darn, I’ve realized I need to overwhelm this feeling. As the cameras pointing at her all turned to me.
“I-I’m sorry”. Silence has filled the scene. Except for the shutters of the cameras I knew was all for me. As I bowed my head trying to hide my blushing face. People were like
“is he the one?, is he the one?” repeating over and over again. I can even hear some laughing.
“you… don’t tell me you go all the way here just to say that?”. her tone, way to different than before… she was serious.
“crazy isn’t it? I’ve realized I must say it to you personally or else I will not be able to have any peaceful sleep for a long time.” – I’ve overwhelmed it.
“A-are you having guilt?..” she said those lines I got really confused.
“for what?.. I dunno what I've done wrong or anything. I just felt I must apologize. I-I’m sorry…” I just said things without thinking again. *sigh
“then… you shouldn’t be… I’ll be going.”
She left the scene. I was again left out cold.
Her sister approached me and said,
“you shouldn’t have made this scene. You ruined her mood…”
I thought if I come here I would find the answers that may mind and my heart eagerly wants to know. But now, I was left with another “confusing stuff” as to what I should be guilty for? The heck…
I went home upset. I had a long ride.
I was really down and tired. I ate and logged my facebook acct before bed.
I’m surprised bout how many friend requests and notifications I have.
I traced the root of those notifications, it’s from a newly tagged picture.
I clicked it and guess what? It’s from a photographer earlier.
The picture had Almira and me faced. The title of the pic?
“Almira’s lover sucks”.
And her funs were all booing me like hell.
I guess I won’t accept all those 139 friend request or else I might get trashtalked.
A moment later. A new notification pops up.
I’m hesitating but I did clicked it.
“Almira commented on a photo of you.”
I suddenly became interested and hurriedly viewed it.
Here’s what she said.
“guys thanks for worrying but you shouldn’t have talk bad about him. We just had some misunderstandings but, he’s a good guy. He took his effort talking to me in public and I must say I admire him for that for not all will have the guts to do that.”
I was smiling my lips hard. She’s depending me! Beat that assholes.
And not for long, my notifications increased, and her fans? Were already apologizing.
I decided to comment on that pic coz I know no one can harm me now.
“you always gives the credits to me. Whatever misunderstandings we had, I wish it all to be cleared someday. And if I really did some mistakes, I will accept all those blames on me. I may be stupid coz there’s so many thing I don’t know about. But there’s one thing I knew I was sure… and that is to talk to you like the way we talked the first time we met.”. Damnstraight…. Beat that.
My tiredness level went down, as I’m patiently waiting for her reply.
I looked every new notification as if it’s the one I’m waiting for… then finally.
I got her reply.
“I’m sure we can get through this. And I’m also looking forward for our next meeting. But for now I must say this, if you want to meet up with me again. You must do something to win my attention more convincingly. =)”
I smiled and replied.
“well then, everybody can mark my word. I will your attention convincingly, and I will win you convincingly my own way.”
After that day my life became too colorful. I finally got something to work for. I’ve decided, for me to win her attention I should be famous too. And the easiest way to do it?
“I’ll bring my old band back to life.”
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