Whoah! Yesterday’s awesome! I can still remember the feeling, seems like a midget went inside my chest and beating up my heart momentarily.
She took me home last night [since I don’t have a car, poor me].
Sadly, Mom didn’t able to see her…she’s sleeping, it was really late when we arrived though.
I’m in an awesome mood today, even if this will be my first day as a third year student.
The “duty” thing doesn’t bother me anymore.
I went down early to fix myself up and have breakfast with my Mom, I’m gonna tell her I did good yesterday.
“Mooooom!!!! GoooooddMorniinnggg!!!! Yaha!!!”. Was energized to the max.
“Oh! Amazing, you woke up early. Haha, good timing. Sit down and wait for our guest to finish our breakfast” seems like I’m not the only one with a good mood.
“Huh? Mom, your passing your work to someone?” [mom’s not like that, she always do her work no matter how hard it is. She’s not into asking for somebody’s help…]
“Well, she insist…”
“She?” the guess… I think who she was when I heard her voice…
“Ma? Do I have to add salt in it?”… geez, I’m sure now.
“Yup honey,the amount? It’s up to you. I’ll accept it no matter how it turns to be. Haha.”[whew… is this really my mom? She’s having a good time]
“Ok! Maa!! Haha.”.
“Eh?”. [since when did this two got close?]
Finally she finished cooking, she went to the table and I finally saw her face…
"Ahhh!!!...what a wonderful sight first thing in the morning. She’s beautiful even withouth her make up and stuffs.
My chest, it hurts. I have to make this midget stop what she’s doing with my heart.
“Damn midget…”
“Huh? who are you calling midget?, Tss… you’re still sleepy, don’t mistake me for a midget, I’m even taller than you tough guy.”…Geee… she’s so defensive.
“It’s not you, silly. How’d you get here so early?”
“Don’t even try to think of somebody other than me.
[ with a dragon’s look *effect stronger than mine ]
I can always do anything once I set my heart to it, even waking up at 3 in the morning and go to a stupid guy’s house, preparing a breakfast for him and gosh I’m mistaken for a midget!”
”H-hey! I said it’s not you.”
“Then who is it? You’re loving somebody other than me? Huh??!”
“The hell with that? of course not! I’m just describing how I feel, like… like… a midget went inside…no, no. a lumberjack went inside my chest and whacks my heart every time I see you. How about that? Curiousity satisfied?”
“Geez…you should just put it in a more simplier way. Like butterflies and stuffs. Or you could just blush so I can get it? Or just simply say “I love you”, bakero.”
[ is it an argument? Well, I don’t care if it is, I don’t feel like it. In fact, it feels good. That I can talk to her like this, and it seems like she’s all into me this time…*speaking of that, I’m liking it, when she gets jealous and defensive.]
“Ahaha. You sounded like a married couple just now. How sweet of you two. I think I’m gonna start thinking of what to suggest for my grandchild’s name”
“Mom!.” my eyes met Almira’s and she blushed big time.
“Haha. Well anyway, honey place that down and let’s eat.”
“O-Oh… yeah"
[placed the plate down]
tadaa! Everyone let’s eat.
She sat beside me, she’s still blushing.
She can’t hide that blushing face now, not without her make up.
I hold her hands and I simply said.
“Thank you…”, I tried to let go of her hands but she won’t let that happen.
I looked at her and I was like saying “How are we going to eat with this?”. She used her free hands to feed me. I know I looked like a sick person but it’s cool. My mom is simply laughing at us. She won’t say a word. And it’s really nice. We seemed to be one family now, eating breakfast together.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
NOVEL: "Picture Perfect" Part 4 2/2
It’s 6am when the alarm did his job.
I was like undertaker with his usual sit up thing *only with a smile.
I went to the frig, and saw mom’s note in it.
“do your best son”. Was a heck of a breakfast! Mom’s trying to give her best to give me the energy and the mood I will need for today. I should give my best too.
I won’t let her down.
My bro gave me this instruction:
“Be late to her. – she’s a very special person, all her life she’s been treated as a star. That’s why…she expects you to wait for her. And once you’re late, she’ll gonna think there’s plenty of things in your mind other than her. She will be trying to get your attention from then on.”
Well said my brother. That I will do.
Hmm. I wonder if an hour of late will be enough?
That being said is what I did.
I’m 1 hr late from the set time when I arrived.
I saw no one there…I was like:
“Huh? where is she? Did she grew tired of waiting and decided to leave? The hell! I shouldn’t have listen to my stupid brother’s advice!”
I was like shouting there like “Shiiiiittt!!!” and stuffs until.
“I’m sorry I’m late, I admit it I’m an hour and a half late…have you gone mad waiting for me? *laughs soflty* cos seriously…you looked stupid shouting.”
My head, slowly turning from the direction of her voice. After seeing her a song played in my mind
i’ve been waiting for you~all my life for somebody who…makes me feel the way when I am around you.. blah blah blah.~~~
“boys next door…” I was a complete bastard too say the band who performed that song.
“huh?..have you been drinking? haha” darn .. I made her laugh again.
“g-g-gugh.” I have plenty to say but the words won’t come out straight.
“Just ask me to sit down. Tough
“o-ohh. Have a sit, my apologies.” [funny, I remembered I should be the one to make her wait.]
We’ve met privately. In one of her favorite Malls she said.
People we’re not allowed to interrupt us in anything so I think I can be worryless.
But those people’s eyes…staring at us were really bothering.
“so…now that you’ve met me, what will be the next thing for you?, I mean you’ve became famous, way better than I thought you will… anyways, you were great out there. It was crazy, seeing you’re band in the commercial. Very wacky…”call me.” Hahaha.”
“tss…of course the next thing I will do is to see you again…and see you again some more, so on. The band, it will stay. We’re like brothers, we understand each other’s feelings. They respect my goal. And that is to be with you…hard lady.” I’m so glad I can say things truthfully to her.
“you sure is a nice talker. Silly, you’re making my heart beat faster.”
“w-well, I’m not really good with speaking. It just so happens that this is the first time I got to talk to you heart to heart. I mean, you won’t ask for my help this time and you won’t run away like the last time we’ve met. So…I guess I just have to say to you things that comes out from my heart, even though how stupid it may turn out to be.”
[Damn straight, exactly how I feel.]
“are you nervous?.. you don’t have to be. Hmm, know what? Why don’t you just treat me as ordinary as I can be. Just imagine like….like…”I’m not special” if I really am…”
[it’s easy for you to say that, how the can I think of you as an ordinary person? I can’t see someone like you buying fish balls in the streets. If that’s what you’re saying, dammit.]
“that I can’t do.”
“give me one reason why you can’t?” she’s still with that smile. It was so bullying me.
I have to overcome that… have to say something awesome…
“coz you’re my next girlfriend, dammit.” Nailed it.
She stopped for a while, I thought she became angry. I was ready to apologize when I see that her face was…red…
“L-look what you’ve done. I’m so blushing right now. *sighs* I guess I couldn’t hide it anymore. Tss…My heart beat, it’s way to faster than it was before… I’m afraid I may not be able to catch it anymore”
“don’t be afraid…I’m a NURSE = )”. I hold her hands just like that. I was looking cool, but deep inside I was really nervous.
I’ve been great! Mom’s gonna be proud of me.
All my hard work has paid off. *teary eyes.
“h-hey are you crying?, thought you’re a tough guy. Haha..” so she recovered from blushing.
“I’m not crying! My eyes, they just can’t take what they’re seeing right now. They’re seeing such beauty that they’ve became confused if it’s real or not.. t-they just, sweat..”
Blah, didn’t I tell you my mind won’t work well in front of her.
“didn’t knew that eyes do sweat. I’m loving it, you’re spontaneous mindless speaking. Haha”. She always ends her statement with a laugh.
“tss. Stop bullying me with you’re smile. I’m collapsing dammit.”
“Hey, you said you’re a nurse! You might as well treat you’re self for good, silly. Haha”
[just like what I’ve said, she always end her statement with a laugh. Usually, girls laughs before saying anything so that they’re voice will be clear. But she, she tries to hold that laugh til she finish her statement. She doesn’t care what her voice will sound. Hmm, but she’s cuter that way. Dammit, why am I noticing such little things. I’m really fucked up in the head. *laughs]
“Not fair! Share your thoughts, your laughing on your own” *booing.
“haha. It’s nothing…I just found your more cuter in personal. You’re making me think I’m more older than you.” [she’s 2 years and 5 months older than me though]
“H-hey! Are you saying I don’t act like my age? Meanie, you just can’t stand my cuteness”.
“Haha.. maybe.” Well, what she said there was true.
“hmm. We should change spot I think.” Points her eyes on the crowd.
“yeah, I think so too.” People in the coffee shop are getting crowdy.
“Well then, let’s have some walk?” she stood and held my hands.
Walking with her feels like walking in heaven itself.
I can’t take my smile out of my face as I’m seeing the stare of those asshole fanatics who booed me before, they are sooo feeling jealous at my current position.
*haha. Beat this assholes
“Ever since we left the café your smile has changed. More like a devilish grin, stop bullying my fans, silly.” So she noticed huh? *haha.
“Sorry. I can’t help myself. Haha, I’m so loving the feeling with you.”
“What feeling?” she seemed to be curious with the way she looked at me.
“This cool feeling, whatever it is. Makes me want to be with your side always.”
“You’re in love with me?” she’s teasing
“haha. Who knows? It’s really different, the feeling is with you. Two years ago when we first met I’ve already felt it. That’s why I didn’t leave the stage without you, remember? [lifts her head up]. Well, I just have to hide and pretend I didn’t had that feeling that time because of my ex.”
“Oh…yeah. I remember your ex. Such a great voice she have. Where is she now?”
“She’s gone.”
“oh my gosh! She died?!”
“the hell? No, she’s just literally “gone” like one day when I woke up I can’t find her anymore. Even the band can’t find her.
“that’s weird. Have you searched for her?”
“Yup. It took me almost a year when I gave up.”
“D-don’t tell me, you’re a serial killer who kills your girlfriend without a trace? I-I’m scared…”. Covers her hands with her hands. And wiggled it.
“the hell with that conclusion? Stop seeing CIA series, you’re becoming suspicious.”
“ehe…just kidding. I just want to change topic.”
“Why? You’re being jealous with my ex?.. teehee.”
“N-no! I’m not…I…I just…hate her somehow.”
[well I was shocked when I heard that]
“if she didn’t disappeared and just broke up with you… you could’ve pursued me much earlier…years earlier…”
She’s right… the thought of “still having” a girlfriend thing stopped me from seeing things as they are. If my ex just settled things up and broke up with me, I could’ve searched for Almira earlier. For I know our first meeting is really “big time” for me. Although I kinda forgot about it somehow due to the time and brain damage.
“I-I shouldn’t have said that. she’s still you’re ex somehow. Sorry.”
“No. don’t be sorry. You could say “I hate her” as many times as you want. You can even rent a voodoo guy and cast a spell against her. What ever to express your hatred to her I just don’t care about it anymore.”
“silly. She’s your ex.”
“one hell of an ex though.”
“that makes me want not to be your ex tough
“Don’t worry, when you became my girlfriend I won’t break up with you. And I’ll see to it that you won’t break up me too. How about that? sounds cool?”
“that is…”if” I become your girlfriend”.
“sigh. That’s the thing… tss..”
“it’s really cool to see you look depress. Haha”. [rubbed my hair with her hands.]
“H-hey” [ she still won’t stop ]
“I’m missing this hair, it’s been long when I first saw you, I’m surprised when I saw you the last time, it’s shaved. Glad I can play with you hair now”.
“I-I’m not a floppy dog. Tss.. you’re really good at changing topic”
“what made you accept that you’re ex was gone?”
“huh? what’s it all of a sudden? Thought- oh… well. I just thought she set me free.i just thought she’s thinking it’s best for me. She always thought of what will be better for me. Even if she sacrifice for it sometimes. That’s the kind of girlfriend she was.”
“so…you sound totally different from what you’ve said before. Miyu, she’s kind wasn’t she?”
“yeah…she’s a good person… w-wait, how’d you know her name?”
“two years ago…we’ve talked”.
Huh? that’s right. I remembered she said they talked before.
“it was all about you. Our conversation was. Do you know what she said?”
“W-what is it?”
“I didn’t know she was your girlfriend so I told her I like you. She said though that she was your girlfriend so I apologized. But I’m surprised of what she said…
-can you wait for atleast two years? Two years will be enough, for me to forget, and for me him to recover. If you can wait til that time… she’s all yours then. *she’s smiling that time. The first smile that outshines mine, I felt like I’m not “Amira” that time…”
“so she really planned to leave me anyways…that’s weird.”
“yeah. I think so too. But whatever her reason is. I’m so respecting it”
“But I remember. When you interviewed Cara you said that my ex said something like leave us alone right? She’s the one your talking about right?”
“Yeah…well, I just said it that way because I didn’t like the fact that Miyu outshined me that time…sorry my bad.”
“silly. I never thought you’d do such things. Haha.”
“H-hey. I’ve done it bad. Why you’re still laughing?”
“you really do such crazy things too, good thing though. I’m afraid you will be mad if I accidentally do crazy things to in the future.”
“well, I won’t be mad. If it’s bearable though. I’m not that perfect, I sometimes do stupid things I’m not aware of.” [She grabbed my hair again. She’s so liking it dammit]
“hmm… I’ve already said how I feel the first time I met you two years ago. So how about you? You found me awesome?”
“you? Eew… hahaha.. kidding… well... seriously…”
“yeah? seriously?”
She sighed, and she was like smiling. So different from before, was one of her greatest smile.
“I loved you since the very first time I saw you two years ago. You stand on stage with your guitar and you’re like…like “pls look at me I’m awesome” attitude. It caught my attention very convincingly. And that I ask for your help? It’s just my way to be close to you.”
[ she stopped rubbing my hair and crossed her arms with mine… I remember we were like this before…. Back then, when we went down the stage together *it was a good feeling ]
NOVEL: "Picture Perfect" Part 4 1/2
We will be resting for two days. No jam, no performance.
A good time to rest my voice.
I watched the channel where I can see her during commercials.
Was a good channel though, I’ve watched all day long.
I laughed when I saw our music video.
“wow it’s even played here.” I feels so proud of myself. Even though I kinda looked dumb at the end of that vid, coz I was like with the hand sign saying “call me”.
Haha.. I laughed my ass out.
Not for long since the next show started.
The show we were yesterday, still I can’t stop laughing when I saw the host, as I remembered how speechless she became when I nailed the “meeting with Almira thing”.
But that laugh, that smile it was replaced by tension when she introduced her guess for today.
It was the channel’s ambassadress, damn right, she’s Almira.
I’ve sweated for almost every minute on her interview.
“Yesterday, the world has been shocked by Paradox’s vocalist Yano Stifler’s statement about his demand to meet you. Tell about your thoughts about this. Were you surprised? Do you know him personally?, or was like the two of you met before?”
*this host, she always ask such obvious questions, of course she knows me. She’s slow, dammit.
“Well, first of all I do know him. But no I wasn’t surprised, I’ve been waiting for him to do something like this for the past weeks. I know his gutsy, and it’s funny how he deal with what I’ve said to him about our deal. Well, *coughs I met him two years ago and since then I became a fan of his guitar play.”
[haha, yeah right. Well said, you’ve won my world with that.]
“I see, so what does he mean when he said “meet me when you’re ready” is this have something to do with your “deal” whatever it is?.”
*I think she’s so slow… sigh. I’m feeling hopeless for this host.
Almira paused for a while and replied afterwards.
“I was crazy making him wait for so long since I personally wants to meet him up for so long too. It’s now my turn to make a statement.”
She sighed. I’m catching my breath. She smiled. I paniced!, then she said:
“Yano… I’m ready. Meet up with me.”
*woah…the butterflies, they’re in my stomach.
The host again was left speechless.
*I personally think the channel should replace her.
Darn my smile, I can’t stop it from reaching my ears.
Finally, the day came. All my hard work has paid off.
Maykel called me and congratulate me, same did my other bandmates.
My facebook acct was full of notifications again.
And that night, Almira sets up the date and as to where we will meet.
She send me the info as she finally accepted my friend request.
Woohoo! I’m laughing my ass hard… still can’t believe it…finally a chance.
A day after I saw a copy of a banner form her fan.
-Almira meets Yano-
Cosplay Queen meets Phillippine’s Stifler. What will happen next?
“whoah, I kinda look handsome in this”
It’s really been fun time. Everyone wishes me luck.
When I walk outside people were like:
“You can do it!”
I’m so glad everyone is with me in this fight.
We even had a drink, the band and I.
They’re giving me their speculations, was a heck of a laugh trip.
Funny, even the news in local channels announced our meeting.
Even in yahoo! In youtube, fan’s reactions and speculations were like boomers.
I guess I had to be prepared.
Everyone counts on me…even my mother, for her future grand daughters.
“mom, this I promise you…someday Almira’s gonna be using our surname”.
After that I didn’t have much sleep.
For it’s finally the day. This is it!
The day I’ve been waiting for her has come!
Sunday, June 6, 2010
NOVEL: "Picture Perfect" Part 3 3/3
I did my best to contact my ex bandmates.
Our drummer and lead guitarist have some sort of discomfort with each other due to some of their misunderstandings. So I guess I should start by getting our basist first.
He works at 7/11 as a cashier. [a part time job]
“do you accept check?”. I slammed my empty wallet on the counter.
“check my ass! Hahaha. What do you want?”. He’s still a laughing person.
“I’ll be needing your help.” Seriously stared at him, was a stare of a dragon.
“for what?”.
“to win a girl’s heart.”. The handshake we had, I’m sure he was like. “count me in”.
Maykel was the first member I recruited back then, when my ex and I decided to form a band. Funny, he’s still the first I got back.
“so, Miyu… does she knows about this? Will she join us too?”
“The hell with that… as if she’s somewhere to be found…”
“so… she’s still missing huh? who’ll be our vocalist then?..”
“Me.”
My voice is good so stop wondering.
It’s just that Miyu has this perfect vocalist figure, that’s why she’s the vocalist of the band back then. Well, I’m not planning to waste years of my life trying to find her. Since I’ve already looked for her a couple of years ago when she disappeared (literally).
I just don’t care about her anymore.
Maykel sure was handy in the band. Not because he’s the oldest, but. He has the most convincing powers.
In just a matter of talk, he made Clark[lead guitarist] and Lloyd[drummer] to join the band again.
Before the fun begins, we had a meeting and I shared my plans to them.
“so guys, now that were back together expect things to have a bit of a change. Since Miyu will not be able to do the vocs, I will replace her.”.
“but are you sure we will be fine without her?
“it’ll be okay dude, in fact it’ll be bigger for us this time”. I’ve answered excitedly.
“but how is that possible? We don’t even have a manager?”. Says Lloyd and her usual curiosity.
“Don’t worry guys. I have everything planned.”
My plan wasn’t bad after all.
The first week we jammed and jammed and shoot some videos.
I uploaded it in youtube. And hell what? There’s already been thousands of views in just a matter of days. Our stupid costume did the job. Smart me. I made my bandmates wear a ripper’s suit. It’s hot but its eye catching. Used all of my savings though, but it’s worth it, because since then we had so many invitations, wanting us to be guess performers for some band competition, we performed in bars, and we even got invited to perform in some cosplays.[as ive planned] we even had commercial! And recordings!
It was successful.
The sercret is, everytime I got home from performing. I’m visiting her site to get some inspiration. I’m just waiting her to hear the news about me. I’m really working hard.
This day we had a big stage.
We performed at
“So. Yano Stifler, in just a matter of weeks your band has been really popular. It started at youtube, you’re songs have reached the top in some radio stations. Your band even had a commercial. Wow… so tell me, what are you planning to do next?”.
Live interviews, it makes me sick. I think I’m gonna slip my tounge and say somwthing stupid.
My bandmates were all smiling as they looked at me, I got what they’re trying to say as they point on the picture of the channel’s ambassadress.
I smiled and replied.
“I’m planning to meet someone”..
my bandmates were
“ooh!!! Finaly!”. Laughing
“m-meet someone? Who may that person be? A girlf—“
“Almira… meet up with me when you’re ready.” I left the host speechless..
NOVEL: "Picture Perfect" Part 3 2/3
I woke up late, it was like 12 in the afternoon. It took me til almost
I’ve concentrated my mind to just do the conscious breathing exercise.
I was like…
“breaaatheee innnn…. Breatthheeee outttt…..
Breattheee inn…. Brrr—
- stupid. You’re so stupid!!! I’m sure it was you dumbass!!!”.
*bwahhkk..
Coughed my lungs out.
“tss… that was never worth remembering. I’m sure Cara’s just stupid to agree with my stupidness. That I’m the one Almira’s talking about? My mind must’ve been fucked up.
*sighs… I guess we’re both stupid”.
I realized I’m at the window with that monologue. My neighbor kinda looked at me weird. Seems like she’s been hearing my shits.
“yeah!!! Oh great! I’m talking to myself! Have a nice day!”
Shut the curtains closed.
Hmmm… I don’t plan to leave the house today. It feels like my world’s only gonna be much more complicated that I can’t put things as it was before… if I leave that is.
So… uhmmm… lezee, what will be my lunch for today.
Tss…
I’ll open my desktop and let my Little Warrior fight her ass off.
Or maybe , ill feel better if I play poker?
Or beat my enemy's ass in GG!
Whatever will it be! I have so much choice to enjoy! Mwahahaha
*laughed like a bastard.
When I logged my facebook acct and clicked on my Little Warrior I only got disappointed.
“
-xxXAlmiraXxx
“Gugh! That’s it! I’m gonna view her dammit!”
I viewed her like I usually does, saw something in her wall. I felt my heart broken when I read her wall status.
“sorry for what happened yesterday. I’ve realized I need to act more mature. I shouldn’t acted like that. It was funny though. I’ve found myself in the same situation as before.
He’s still with someone else”.
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Blah: that guys must’ve been out of his mind!
Blah2: yeah who ever that Yano Stifler guy is. I’m sure he eats shit
Blah: yeah, I heard it too, I was there. She left when she said that name.
So it was really me!
I don’t care bout how people talks shits about me anymore.
I’ll go and meet her.
So after that day I went to a “channel station” that she’s about to be guesting.
Tss. I know it may sound like already stalking but it must be done.
I need to apologize to her.
She did came. Darn her presence is so heavy. I feel my jaw shaking.
I was like slapping my jaw, then tried to look tough.
Her sister tried to block her site for her not to see me.
Gosh…how did her sister even recognize me?...
She was staring me as is she were saying:
“what are you doing here?!” but that time I was decided.
I’m gonna talk to her.
“Almira…” I said with the finest voice I could give.
She did looked, surprised.
“y-Yano?”.. with the softest of voice. It struck my heart. I was like shaking stupidly. Oh darn, I’ve realized I need to overwhelm this feeling. As the cameras pointing at her all turned to me.
“I-I’m sorry”. Silence has filled the scene. Except for the shutters of the cameras I knew was all for me. As I bowed my head trying to hide my blushing face. People were like
“is he the one?, is he the one?” repeating over and over again. I can even hear some laughing.
“you… don’t tell me you go all the way here just to say that?”. her tone, way to different than before… she was serious.
“crazy isn’t it? I’ve realized I must say it to you personally or else I will not be able to have any peaceful sleep for a long time.” – I’ve overwhelmed it.
“A-are you having guilt?..” she said those lines I got really confused.
“for what?.. I dunno what I've done wrong or anything. I just felt I must apologize. I-I’m sorry…” I just said things without thinking again. *sigh
“then… you shouldn’t be… I’ll be going.”
She left the scene. I was again left out cold.
Her sister approached me and said,
“you shouldn’t have made this scene. You ruined her mood…”
I thought if I come here I would find the answers that may mind and my heart eagerly wants to know. But now, I was left with another “confusing stuff” as to what I should be guilty for? The heck…
I went home upset. I had a long ride.
I was really down and tired. I ate and logged my facebook acct before bed.
I’m surprised bout how many friend requests and notifications I have.
I traced the root of those notifications, it’s from a newly tagged picture.
I clicked it and guess what? It’s from a photographer earlier.
The picture had Almira and me faced. The title of the pic?
“Almira’s lover sucks”.
And her funs were all booing me like hell.
I guess I won’t accept all those 139 friend request or else I might get trashtalked.
A moment later. A new notification pops up.
I’m hesitating but I did clicked it.
“Almira commented on a photo of you.”
I suddenly became interested and hurriedly viewed it.
Here’s what she said.
“guys thanks for worrying but you shouldn’t have talk bad about him. We just had some misunderstandings but, he’s a good guy. He took his effort talking to me in public and I must say I admire him for that for not all will have the guts to do that.”
I was smiling my lips hard. She’s depending me! Beat that assholes.
And not for long, my notifications increased, and her fans? Were already apologizing.
I decided to comment on that pic coz I know no one can harm me now.
“you always gives the credits to me. Whatever misunderstandings we had, I wish it all to be cleared someday. And if I really did some mistakes, I will accept all those blames on me. I may be stupid coz there’s so many thing I don’t know about. But there’s one thing I knew I was sure… and that is to talk to you like the way we talked the first time we met.”. Damnstraight…. Beat that.
My tiredness level went down, as I’m patiently waiting for her reply.
I looked every new notification as if it’s the one I’m waiting for… then finally.
I got her reply.
“I’m sure we can get through this. And I’m also looking forward for our next meeting. But for now I must say this, if you want to meet up with me again. You must do something to win my attention more convincingly. =)”
I smiled and replied.
“well then, everybody can mark my word. I will your attention convincingly, and I will win you convincingly my own way.”
After that day my life became too colorful. I finally got something to work for. I’ve decided, for me to win her attention I should be famous too. And the easiest way to do it?
“I’ll bring my old band back to life.”
NOVEL: "Picture Perfect" Part 3 1/3
After realizing all my stupidness before, I did all my effort to find the sim card. But after all of that, it still won’t show. Darn, I’m kinda losing hope now. If only I didn’t have a girlfriend that time, maybe we can be more like “close”, “very close” or “real close”.
*sighs. Realizing all of those possibilities makes me sick
Three days have passed, still got no news about the sim card. I just kept on living three days with the same thing. Sleep, eat, net, sleep, mcdo, DoTA, net, sleep. It was like repeating over and over again. I’m kinda low in energy, and my head? Feels like it’s filled with air… can’t stop thinking about her. When I woke up the next morning, it was raining. Seems like I can’t do mcdo or Dota later. I just did net for a while, like as usual I’ve checked for her sit [scanned it a million of times before].
I became tired, feels hopeless. From afar I kept looking for her, and I don’t want the feeling of being like this. Feels like I’m already stalking someone unconsiously. Dammit.
-I’ve decided. I’ll not look at her site, not give any efforts to find that sim card again.
I’ve successfully done that in three days.
I’ll be going to school today to know whether or not I passed all of my summer classes. It was fun meeting with friends, especially that I’ve found out that I really did pass with convincing grades. After that? DoTa marathon! ICT sure was packed with players today. It was like two straight games before we decided to eat lunch.
I’ve ate like there’s no tomorrow.
I’m all full of stuffs, I can’t hardly walk. I decided to be left on the pathway as my friends went in the Allied bldg. for evaluation. I was feeling lazy.
After all the heat, and sea of faces steaming… I saw this someone that caught my attention.
Cara-she’s a friend’s friend. [She’s my friend in facebook though]
She always wears a jacket and she was like cosplaying everyday. She’s weird, but she’s damn hot. Tsk,tsk, I know what you think. You’re thinking I remembered Almira just by seeing her?... what’s wrong with you people…
Well… that’s true… *sighs.
She sat next to me and I was like staring at her bigtime.
“what… gonna say something or what?”..
Realizing her beauty makes me swallow my breath a bit. I’m hesitating to answer her but I thought. If I can’t give her a single word to say. What else if I see Almira today.
“N-Nothing really… you’re Cara right?”. The hell… I’ll just talk to her the way I talked with my friends.
“Yep. You know me?.. I think I saw you before.” With a curious stare.
“I’m Lem’s friend. And actually, we’re already friends…in facebook.”
“haha. You’re name?”.
“Yano Stifler. Bet you know that name… teehee.”
“ hmmm. Is your name written like [draws in her palms] this?”
“yeah. It was like that. so you’re familiar with me huh? not to be shocked my name’s really been that big and sound”.
“Haha. Silly, I do hear your name a lot but I remembered it because of your profile pic.”
“Huh? profile pic?”. [Hmmm what’s with my profile pic anyways.]
“Almira-she’s my idol”... [oh shoot! I forgot to change it]
“oh…I forgot. I’ve set it a week ago…”
My friends came back and stole me away from Cara…
while walking I’ve thought of this.
“If you couldn’t forget something you couldn’t have, why not take something with the same value?”. Almira outshines Cara in a million of aspects, but they do have one thing in common. They’re both cosplayers.
“hey… are you listening?!”, says lem. I didn’t know he was talking. I was so busy thinking.
“know what?” I answered him with a diff question
“the hell?..”
“Maybe I should date her”.
I hurried back to Cara and left my friends. We had fun together and that starts ourselves gaining the title “officially dating”.
We had fun with days and days after that.
What’s silly is this, she asked me to join her in her cosplaying stuff.
I did came to support her,
What surprised me is this judge that ask her this off the theme question.
“you’re doing good… I know you’ll win this. You seemed to be inspired… are you with… Yano?”.
Huh? how’d this judge knew me?
Not expecting. So not… I’m surprised when I take a good look at this judge, she got this smile on her face and guess what? She’s Almira godammit!.. and the real thing that surprised me?
Is the fact the she remembered me.
“yep…” says Cara who seems to be confused.
“that explains it.”… Almira said it still with the permanent smile.
I didn’t know how to react? I’ve dated Cara to forget about Almira, but here she comes when I’m not trying to look for her. Worse, it feels like I’m in a same situation as before.
“I’ve met Almira when I’m with someone”.
I’m stone gazed. By both ladies, I’ve decided to leave the place, before anything can happen silly. But I realized I can’t do that anymore, as I’ve noticed that the people are staring at me as Almira were saying this:
“Long ago…urmm… exactly two years ago, I’ve met this musician that helped me win a competition. A very big competition, it was the biggest win for me… that’s why I looked for him, coz I know this guys Is really something, and the moment I talked to him I’ve felt something for him. Sadly… he had already someone, and that someone wants me out of their lives… so … ermm… I’m glad you’ve found someone who inspires you.”
[leaves the stage. Silence has ruled the area]
W-what? Is she talking about me? No way! B-but. It seems to be connected, like two years ago? A musician? A competition? Back then she said she wants to win that.
Oohh.. and that “someone” she must be saying…. Would it be my ex? Damn!!!
What’s with all of this?
I’ve decided to follow Almira but she was like running with two of her friends trying to stop her. She got to the car and immediately leaves. As I watched the car leave, I’ve lost my legs and dropped. My mind and heart is feeling heavy.
Without Almira’s decision. Cara won by the help of the other judges.
I can’t sleep… my mind is filled with all the information I had today. With all the events that happened. I can’t get a single thing! And especially… I’m now getting bothered by how Cara and I will do. You know that I dated her to forget Almira right?.. I think I can’t do this anymore, now that she’s getting serious about “us”. And … I’m really bothered by how our last conversation goes.
[Cara caught me on the floor sitting, with my drifting afar]
“so… you really know Almira don’t you? The pic? It’s not really a coincidence”. Saying stuffs like that… she seems to be bothered too.
“yeah… I really know her. But the pic was really a coincidence, I didn’t knew it was her. I mean we’ve met a long time ago, I can’t recall her face… all I know is that … she’s beautiful. I remembered her just recently.”
“I see… s you just used me to for you to meet her. You’ve planned all this? How was it? Did it turned out good?” all of a sudden she said things suspiciously. Can’t blame her.
“hell no!!! i-it was… actually the opposite, b-but you can just forget about what you think. I’m not into using you”.
“guys will always be guys, they always go for something that is “better” in their eyes. I thought you’re not one of them. I thought you’re cool!.”
[she left me alone out cold as I looked bad in front of the people from before]
“I aint cool at all….”
Should I call her now? Hmmm, but what will I say? Err, it might turn out bad if I use the wrong word. The hell am I thinking! I’ll just start by congratulating her.
[phone rings….
Phone rings again…
After 10mins she finally answered]
“Are you planning to kill my phone, you jerk!!!”
“congrats…
…
I forgot to tell you,
thought you’re in a hurry.”
“[voice shaking]…you’ve called me just to say that?... stupid…”
“hey! Are you crying?! I-“
“who told you I’m crying!? I-im just cold…
…
So is that the only thing you’re saying? I’m dropping this.”
“no… know what? I think I’m telling you a secret.”
“hmpf! Just say it dumbass!” I think she’ll not be able to hold it for the next several minutes so I hurried and told her about this:
“I-I think I’m the man Almira’s talking about earlier.
I know it must be crazy but. Everything’s connected. I’ve met Almira In a cosplay. My band performed and I was about to leave when she came and asked me to play a piece for her. We tagged along… and she won… I was very impressed but I can’t continue looking up to her coz I had my ex back then.
Dunno… maybe I’m mistaken…
Hey…still there?”.
“stupid…[voice shakes again]. You’re so stupid!!! I’m sure it was you dumbass!!!”.
Slammed her phone big time. My ears got “tiiiiingggggg” for quite sometime.
Hmmm..
Will Cara be okay tonight? I hope she’s not really crying.
How will Almira deal with the scene she made? Bet the news will spread.
As for me? I’ll just go to sleep and think about something tomorrow.
NOVEL: "Picture Perfect" Part 2 3/3
So… it finally came to goodbye classmates time. I’m not seeing them for a week.
Good thing I had fun with them, a good thing to remember. I had fun with my two stupid friends together with my long time crush, and a long time friend.
Well, it’s not the fact that my crush is sitting with me and our skin touch each other at the long ride that caughts my attention; It’s this girl in front of me who happens to be looking at me for quite sometime…*err.. you know I don’t want the feeling of being stared,
dramatically by a stranger. Esp. for those who have the looks, it’s really turning me down. So my eyes, I set them where I can escape her eyes… but after several minutes, I checked if she’s not doing it anymore. Yeah, she stopped. But from the moment I sighed, she stared again, and this time our eyes have met. Can’t look somewhere, it appears she got my system that time. Then she smiled and played her eyes. I was like:
“(the hell’s wrong with this one?)”. I looked at my classmates. They’re still sleeping, guess I’m the only one conscious in this long ride.
So after an hour of struggling we finally arrived at a certain point where we have to travel our separate ways back home. It’s goodbye stranger thing to.
But before that, we went at McDonald’s and I ordered my super tipid meal, my own menu, “coke float + regular fries”. Hell yeah.
After that I got home and slept like a log.
I woke up late, it’s already been five in the afternoon, my bro asked me to buy “halo-halo” with me. It is so refreshing, the feeling is. One of the best halo-halo I’ve ever tasted. So what comes next is our usual DOTA session, 2-4 hrs session depending on the mood and money in hand. After that day, my bro decided to check on my Dad and head news about his proclamation. What happened is, Dad ask him to stay until the proclamation time will be issued.
Meanwhile, I was left alone, with got nothing to do but to watch a dvd of an anime season that my friend told me to watch. It’s nice seeing the film, but after that I’m left again with nothing…Nothing but to think of her.
Funny, I didn’t even know her name. I did a ‘lil research and finally come after the discovery of not just her name, but something about her. And among that, after seeing stuffs at her site. I’ve found something that surprised me. A link between the two of us.
-Almira , she’s a very talented person, a model, cosplayer . artist, and aside from that she’s so beautiful (that makes her a public figure). After seeing some of her pics, I saw something familiar.
The date was included, almost two years ago.
The people around the area, the host of that event, and she on the center stage with a guitarist facing backwards.
Think…think…think… so after a time of brain damage.
I finally realized that I know this event, I’m in this event and… and…I already saw her and talked to her personally!
Hell yeah! That’s the reason why when I looked at her, the first picture I saw from her, I can’t take my eyes off of her! That’s because I’m still recalling wether I know her or not.
*Phew… finally got the reason why I’m so curious about her.
Ohh… darn, why did I forgot such thing.
Hmmm. I remember talking to her back then, in the back stage. This may not be the exact conversation we had. But it’s more like it:
[It was after performing as a guess of a cosplay something event, my band and I were already leaving but I was left backstage fixing my hair.]
“Excuse me, you’re from the band that performed a while ago right?”. I slowly turned my head and saw her… I was really stunned by her that time.
“Y-yeah…” [from that moment I did became a fan of her but not for much, coz I have my ex back then, which happened to be the vocalist of the band.]
“uhm… I-I’m in trouble, is it okay If I ask you for a help, I promise I’ll make it up to you after the show.” [Her voice, kinda nervous… yeah I can tell…]
“Hmmm… we’ll be leaving soon but, tell me what is it. Maybe I can still do something about it though.” [Darn, who am I to turn this girl down. I’ll regret it if I didn’t help her that time]
“you’re the guitarist guy right? Can you play a piece for my entrance? I’d really love to be good this time, my Dad is watching”. [talking bout the cosplay]
“how long til your turn?”
“after the current performance, I’ll be third to show on stage”.
[I looked at my ex who happens to be listening with our conversation from afar… She raised her head giving me the signal to go on]
“W-Well… as long as I know the piece I can help you. What’ll it be?”..
“Wow! You’re really helping? As for the song…err… it’s not popular to a rock star like you, but… I’m hoping, if you know “to zanarkand” from FFX?”…
[She’s cute, the way she speaks fast, the way she closed her eyes with her fingers crossed.
I stared at her… took a while for me to answer. I can’t get over with her cute expression. Dear me]
“that… miss… is one of my favorite…” -horayyyy…
Our tag team really did a good job. The people were like “Oooohh!!!” shouting, chanting, cheering. Dunno if it’s because of my guitar play, or because of her stunning beauty.
After that she gave all the credits to me, thanking me on stage which made me shy… a lot. I didn’t have the chance to go down the stage `til she went down.
“Lovely crowd isn’t it?”.
[her arms crossed with mine. Oh god, if this happens in the present time, I may lose consciousness and collapse…or maybe we could get along some more. But thanks to my ex , that time it didn’t crossed my mind. I was so worried about how my ex will react after…*sigh]
“Y-yeah. By the way, thanks for the opportunity. It was like one of the biggest crowd for me. More bigger than my earlier performance”.
“I should be the one to thank you… ohh..
[she grabbed my phone as I took it out of my pocket. She saved her number…swt…]
Maybe you should call me sometime, we should team up again how’d you think?”.
*she made my heart beat big time…
“i-it’s freaking fine with me”.
But after that, I looked again at my ex. And I know it wouldn’t be cool for her to see me like this anymore, so I made my farewell to Almira.
Funny. After that time, me and my ex wasn’t cool anymore, we’ve went to some useless arguments and I ended up beating one of her stupid dumbass friend who she didn’t know tries to make advantage of her. [my ex was a beautiful jerk though]. And one time, she just magically disappeared.* She’s still nowhere to be found til now.
So after all of those head aches, I decided to throw my phone, slammed it bigtime on the wall. Including the sim card with the precious number [stupid me! Huhu].
The hell am I thinking that time.
But now, I’ll do what it takes to see that sim card again.
I know it’s still alive! I can feel it!!! Just wait for me Almira!...
NOVEL: "Picture Perfect" Part 2 2/3
We finally arrived after an hour of ride. When I saw my friends who left me in the café waiting for someone who’s already been there before me, I was like:
“Fuck you all! Kiss my ass, talkshits. We’ll leave together my ass!!!”
“haha. He’s the one who says “let them be”. *Mong Pointing at Minos. I turned my head and he was like.
“e.he.he…”
Damn he’s so passive!
It was fun, we had card games.
My body got sunk in the pool (literally since I really can’t swim).
My stupid friends and I made a stupid dance at the pool, choreographed by me.
I ate a lot, even though it’s kinda late when the food has been prepared. Oh well, after that was the drinking marathon.
I was in the frontline trying to escape the aftermath.
It’ll be nice to drink the pawns to avoid the Kings and
*Haa-haa. Smart me.
So after the first batch of drinks went down, I went to the videoke and sung the rest of the night to avoid TQ’s and Blacklabel stuff. --I’ve succeeded.
So after my voice got lost (literally), I turned my head to view the aftermath on the battlefield.
Everyone got real shattered. It was fun seeing them having so much fun.
A really good time to unwind after six weeks of endless lectures and return demonstrations.
I’ve found myself stopping, as I remembered again the picture earlier *oh dear me…
I somehow thought:
“What if someone like her is with me in this moment?..
She’ll have laughs with my classmates,
Sings with me,
Plays card with my stupid friends,
Join me in the pool.
And shares her thought…right now.
Will it be more fun?.. Well, I’m sure it will be.
But am I being to selfish?.. What about her?
Is someone her standards likely to have fun with an average guy like me in a pool party that’s been to common for her?
Oh… and in the first place, she won’t come along anyways…”
*sighs…
“Hey you looked bothered, something wrong?”.
Chichi’s voice, the classmate I least expect to talk to me, she’s sooo quiet in class.
But I know she’s cool to be with though.
“Nah, just imagining things.” -I turned my back, don’t want her to see my bothered face.
“Would you like to share it with me? C’mon, after all I’m skipping my turn”.
Points out the guys drinking.
“I see… know what? I usually gets advice to drunk persons, they kinda good with that”.
“bahhh… what’s it you want to talk about?”.
“haha. That’s’ one thing I like about them, they go straight to the point.”
“hey! I didn’t say I’m drunk!”.
“stop it, you’ve already admitted it”.
So, I’ve shared my thoughts to Chichi.
“how about it? It’s weird isn’t it? I know there’s no way I could get to her. She’s so unreachable.” *sigh included.
I’m really impressed bout how she answered it. She sounded like an old woman whose wisdom is nothing to be matched.
“…is there really such thing as “unreachable”? you know, there’s always a way to reach things. Long ago, the moon seems so far away but Neil Armstrong together with his crew reached it and walked at it as if like walking in the park.”
Like what I’ve said. A wisdom of a thousand year old lady.
“…s-such fine words you sad. Oh… damn you, you gave me hope just when I’m about to give her up.”
“silly, I didn’t intend to give you hope. I’m saying you’re not Neil Armstrong. Hahaha”.
“much has been said. I’m not accepting any word any more. But thanks for your flowerful “walk in the park” thing, as expected from a crazy drunken woman. Hahaha”.
“H-hey! Look who’s talking? You’re the one who fell in love with a picture. Freak.”
With Chichi’s words I think I already know what I must do.
And that is not to stalk! Dumbass!, it’s to improve myself.
Gain confidence and see what will happen next after that.
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